Cry Out to Jesus

I was watching this movie the other day, a Christmas movie! Ha! It was a Christian movie as well. One of those corny, sappy, feel good movies. The plot isn’t important but the main girl character had this particular scene that got me thinking. Her character in the movie is not a Christian, but throughout the movie she begins to learn about Jesus and the bible. She doesn’t really know anything about the Christian faith. Obviously, she has so many questions and it is quite entertaining. The particular scene that I wanted to talk about was toward the end of the movie. At this point in the movie, she has gotten to know a good bit about Jesus. She knows many bible stories and started volunteering at the local church. We come to the climax of the movie which involves her past coming in to haunt her and she gets her heart broken. She has no family and no place to go. She walks into this particular church, but not the one where she had been volunteering. There is a beautiful statue of Jesus and she just yells at it. “What have you got against me?” The pastor of the church walks in and, of course, she is slightly embarrassed. He reassures her that it’s ok. He tells her to stay as long as she wants and walks away. She sits down in one of the pews and she breaks. She cries out to Him. She finally comes to the point of surrender and says to Him, “I’m listening, what do I need to do?”

I KNOW we have all been at this point in our lives at some time or another. Whether you are a Christian or not. We have all experienced a time in our lives where NOTHING goes right. The saying, “when it rains, it pours” is in full effect and we just sit there and yell at God, like “what the heck are you doing up there”?! Am I right?! When I was watching this scene, it made me think back to the last time that I yelled at God. Yep, I did. Seriously! I was beyond frustrated and hurt, and I blamed it all on Him. It was all completely my fault too. However, God didn’t sit there and say, “told ya so”! He didn’t say, “If you would have listened to Me…”. He didn’t scold me or get mad at me. He welcomed me with open arms and held me while I cried…and cried…and cried some more. He is so faithful! He never fails to welcome me back in His arms when I stray away. And I stray more often than I should. I try doing things on my own and I get slapped so hard back in the other direction I don’t even see it coming. It never fails though, God is there again and again with His open arms. You fall, He will catch you. You cry, He has every one of those tears in the palm of His hand. He sees EVERY tear. Your heart is broken, He is there to put the pieces back together. You feel alone, He never leaves you. You feel unloved, He willingly DIED for you!

I love this scene in the movie! Hopefully I can explain why in the best way. When we get down to the lowest of lows, when everyone else has failed us, when all hope seems lost, where or who do we run to? Jesus! Even the non-believer, much like the girl in the movie. At the time, there was no where and no one else for her to go to, but Jesus came to her rescue! Yes, I realize that a lot of times this will be the only time that we run to Him. When all is lost with no place to go. But I guess what I want you to see is the fact that we ALWAYS come back to Jesus, or in some cases, you run to Him for the very first time. Let’s face it, life really stinks sometimes! There are those times when you need someone/anyone to talk to and no one is available. You go down your list of people that you would call and literally no one answers the phone! You almost feel like they are ignoring you on purpose. Totally been there! In that moment though, you realize that God is waiting on you to call on Him instead. When you finally do decide to talk to God about it, you break. Everything that you have been holding in comes crashing down and you completely breakdown and give it ALL to the Lord!

He is so glad that you FINALLY allowed Him to comfort your heart!! He had been waiting for you to ask Him for help!! He delights in you and loves it when you cry out to Him! Regardless of how long it’s been. A week, a year, or even 10 years. He welcomes you with open arms!! Never forget that He is and always will be there!!

God, I pray for anyone that is on the brink of a breakdown. They are hanging on by a thread and they really don’t know where or who to turn to. God, I pray that they know that you are the only one that can put their life back on track. You are the only one that can bring peace into their life of chaos. I pray, even if they are mad at you, that they cry out to you! We can’t live this life without you and I pray for all of those that are trying to do just that. I pray that you make your presence known in the midst of all the calamity!!

In Jesus name I pray…AMEN!!



Christian Standard vs. Grace

My friend and I have been talking a lot this past week about how hard we can be on ourselves when it comes to our Christian walk. I know I have talked about this a little bit before but I want to expand on it because I know we are all guilty of this. I think, as Christians we are held to a certain standard in how we live our lives. There are expectations and when we don’t meet those expectations, we can feel so defeated. I hate that we do this. I hate that I do this. We have to remember that sin is unfortunately apart of this life that we live. It is inevitable! Perfection is unattainable. There are probably some out there that think they measure up to the status of perfect, but trust me, they have their weaknesses just like everyone else. My friend is struggling because she is wanting and striving to live that Christian life but she doesn’t feel like she can ever get to that standard of complete and total surrender to God. She doesn’t know what that looks like for her. I think in our minds, some of us feel like we need to be doing something so major in order to feel like we are bringing something to the table in our relationship with Jesus. I have felt that way many times. In my mind, I needed to be singing and ministering to thousands of people to have some sort of purpose on this earth. This couldn’t be the furthest thing from the truth. God needs you and uses you where you are!!

I think people have very different views of what the Christian standard is, but inevitably it is to live like Jesus. Seeing as how Jesus lived a completely perfect life on this earth, we can never live up to that standard. However, you can still try to be like Jesus!! It’s how we as Christians are supposed to live. It is an unreachable goal and failure will happen. Before I discourage you too much…WAIT!!! There is one word that you need to focus on here…GRACE!! I will say it again…GRACE!!! Such beautiful word!! The definition…the unmerited and undeserving favor of God. We are so undeserving, but He chooses to give us GRACE because He loves us. Beyond our comprehension! Those sins that you and I commit daily, Jesus died for those! He went to the cross because He didn’t want you to have to pay for it. He said, I am going to take care of this for you. Not to make you feel guilty, not because He wants you to somehow pay Him back, but because He LOVES you. What He wants in return, is your heart! Your whole heart. He knows you will mess up, but He also knows your heart better than anyone. He’s the one that formed it. He sees the life that you are trying to live. He sees that you are doing your best to live in this crazy world around us. He knows it’s not easy, and He loves you anyway.

“The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, GRACE increased all the more..” Romans 5:20

Do you get that? Yall, the more you sin, the more grace God extends to you!! Don’t misunderstand me. Please don’t go out intending to sin more, just to experience more of God’s grace. That is not the point, and that probably won’t work out in your favor!! This does however, show how much God loves us. Your sin does not define you and He looks beyond that sin and loves the person that you are. Allow yourself to experience that kind of love and experience that GRACE!! It is like no other!!


Losing Hurts

I remember back when I was younger, a teenager and even before then, my heart breaking after losing the last game of the season. Which ever sport I was playing at the time didn’t matter. I just remember being so sad that it had come to an end. I have never really thought back to all those times that I just cried and cried till now, but I remember it hurting so much. You ever wonder why? For most young people, they are playing because they love it and because they are good at the sport. For me, I was good at the sports I played, but more than anything, I absolutely loved to play! Heck, I still love to play! Every chance I get! I remember, when it came to basketball, I cried at every major ending in my career. Middle school to high school and then to college. And of course I cried after my last college game. In middle school, we won the County Tournament which was the big game at that age, so we went out on a high. However, I struggled coming into my freshman year in high school. It wasn’t the same as middle school and I had to adjust and I remember crying because of how hard and different things were. Eventually, I figured it out and it worked out of course but it wasn’t easy. My last high school game broke my heart. I think I cried more after that game than any of them. It was the area tournament and we were playing Bob Jones High School, at their place. I don’t feel like we should have lost, and maybe that is why it hurt so much. But also, high school sports were over for me. It hurt. In college, my heart was broken because it was the last game that I was ever going to play competitively. Meaning, it was the last game that was ever going to matter. I mean, I was done. I had been playing since I was nine, and now it was over. That was a hard pill to swallow.

This past weekend, I had to watch my softball girls hearts get broken over two really tough losses in Montgomery at the State Tournament. We won the State Championship last year and it was a beautiful thing! Something I will NEVER forget! We had high hopes of winning it again, and I truly believed that they could do it again! However, to win the state championship two years in a row is an extremely tall feat. Everything has to line up just right. Games have to be played without much room for error. Unfortunately, that did not happen for us this year. After we lost the first game, I saw the wind completely taken from their sails. Not all of them necessarily, but they just looked worn out and beat down. We also knew how difficult it was going to be to make it all the way to the championship game from the losers bracket. We were going to have to win six or seven games in two days. Not easy! To make matters worse, it was beyond what you would call hot. It literally felt like we were sitting on the face of the sun. We had a few hours before our next game, and we had to sit there in that awful heat. By the next game, from the very beginning, the girls energy was struggling. Mine was too. Even the other team seemed to be somewhat out of it. I will give credit where credit is due though, the girls tried. They tried to get each other pumped up. They tried to cheer and get excited but nothing was coming together for us. We weren’t hitting that well and we made careless mistakes in the field. It was the top of the seventh inning and we were down by four at this point. First out, I saw the tears starting to form. Almost like they knew that it wasn’t our day. That, mixed in with the exhaustion from playing and being in that heat all day. We did end up scoring two runs after the first out, but it still didn’t feel right. Second out, more tears came. Third out, our season is over. For some, it will be the last time they play in a game like that. For others, they move onto college and get to experience a whole other world of collegiate sports. For the rest, they will come back next year, fighting to get back to that state tournament.

My advice to you my loves and to anyone else that deals with this sort of thing…keep fighting the good fight and keep the faith. 1 Tim 6:12

Life is journey like no other. You are going to continue to experience heartbreak in more ways than one. Losing is apart of life. It’s how you respond that matters. Learn from your mistakes. Always be better than you were the day before. Build each other up, and DO NOT break each other down. Think before you speak. Words can hurt and they can never be taken back. You can apologize, but those words might never be forgotten. Which is something we all need to remember! Respect your coaches. This one is HUGE!! My favorite coach, and the one that I respected the most, was the one that frustrated me the most at times. She got under my skin sometimes. I didn’t understand why she did some of the things she did. She would get mad at me or frustrated with me. Yell at me. Let me tell you though, she was the best coach I ever had and I will NEVER forget her. She made me better and I respected her for it! You may not understand a lot of things that your coach or future coaches will do, but believe it or not, they know a little bit more than you do. They wouldn’t be in that position if they didn’t. I know a lot of you think that you know everything at this point in your life, but trust me when I say that you don’t. There is so much of life that you have left to experience and that will be a tough lesson for you to learn on your own one day. Trust me! Your coaches love you despite what you might think. I love my girls so much more than they will ever know! Even when they frustrate the ever living daylights out of me!! So, trust and respect your coach/coaches. BE IN THE MOMENT. Love where you are! Do not, I repeat, DO NOT wish your life away. Do not wish for the next season of life to get here. You don’t believe me now, but I promise that one day you will miss this.

Last, but certainly not least…KEEP THE FAITH!! When everything else in this world fails you, your faith is what will get you through. Hold on tight to the God of the universe and He will NEVER leave you or forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)


War Room…Do You Have One?

“He is not impressed by the strength of a horse; He does not value the power of a man. The Lord values those who fear him, those who put their hope in His faithful love.”

Psalm 147:2

I love this verse. I love pretty much the entire book of Psalm because there is basically a chapter for every emotion that we experience! It feels that way to me anyway. But in a nutshell, this verse is saying that God sees the inside of man more than what is on the outside. He doesn’t care what you look like. We put that pressure on ourselves. God is more interested in what’s in your heart. How you treat others. Your relationship with Him. That is what God is looking at when He looks at you. Does that comfort you or make you a little uncomfortable? Probably a little of both right? That is how it is for me, because I know there are a bunch of things that your girl needs to work on.

How great is it though, that God sees you for who you really are?! He sees behind the façade. Peel back those layers that we put up towards others and he sees just you. Thank you Lord. You know those days when you are just broken? You have no desire to do anything but just cry! Nothing is going to help but just getting on the floor, on your knees, lying on your bed, your couch, wherever you prefer and just let it all out. I think that is when we experience God’s love the most because that is as real as we get with Him. Walls are down and we aren’t putting on this front for anyone. We are laying it all out for the One that created us. When was the last time that you just laid it all out there for God? Just got on your knees and cried out to Him? Was it when you needed something? Was it when you were at your lowest point and you didn’t have anywhere to go, but Him? Was it yesterday? Think about it.

Ya know, we don’t have to be in a bad spot to cry out to Jesus. We don’t have to “need something” before we get on our knees and talk to Him. Some of my favorite times have been going in my spare bedroom and turning on worship music and just singing and worshipping God, and crying out to Him in prayer. Just praising His name! Giving Him glory for ALL He has done!

When I first bought my apartment, it was for a specific reason. It was between this one and one other one. The other apt was going to be brand new. I would have been the first to live in it. It was a pretty good location, and it was very nice! Then there was the one that I am currently living in. It was still pretty new, and just as nice. The location was great and the pricing for both were about the same. The difference…a second bedroom. I will never forget. I was having a hard time deciding which to go with because I liked them both. Mom was with me, and she liked both as well and said it was whatever I wanted. Around that time was when the movie War Room was really popular. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it!! Anyway, I told mom that I would probably use the second bedroom as my “war room” (AKA…prayer closet)!! When I said that to mom, she said, “well I think you’ve found your answer!” Or something of that nature! I love that I have a place that I can go and just let everything out! It’s so good and so necessary for a Christian to do that! If you do not have a place, I challenge you to find one. It needs to be somewhere that you can be alone, obviously. But somewhere that you feel comfortable enough to lay everything at the feet of Jesus. Where you can strip down all of the layers that you put up towards people and be the real YOU with your creator!! He wants that from you! And let me tell you, your relationship with God will soar leaps and bounds!! Not only with Him, but in your relationship with others as well!!

Have a blessed Monday!

Just Breathe

I felt led to write about this today. It’s seems like everyone around me is stressing about something lately. Work, school, family, sports, etc. Just worried that things won’t get done in the time that it needs to. Stressed that things won’t go as planned. Wondering how you will get your kids from here to there and also get things done at your house and at work. Just one thing after another. Things continue to add up on your plate. How the heck will you get through this week?!

Have yall ever heard that saying or seen that meme, “God give me patience, cause if you give me strength, Imma hurt somebody!” Ha! I feel like this is appropriate for this week’s post. I get that things are crazy right now. I get that you are stressed to the max, and if someone were to say the wrong thing you could possibly go off! Before you do that…what I want you to do right now at the beginning of your week is to take a minute and JUST BREATHE! Before anything is able to get you off on the wrong foot, just breathe. There is a song with this title by Johnny Diaz and I will attach it so you can listen after you finish reading this. I love this song. Mainly because it reminds me to stop and breathe (obviously), but to come and rest and leave everything at the feet of Jesus. That is the chorus of the song.

Breathe, just breathe

Come and rest at my feet

And be, just be

Chaos calls but all you really need

Is to just breathe

At whatever point you read this, I want you to take just a minute and breathe. Lay everything at the foot of the cross and just be. Things will get taken care of. Everything will work out, one way or another. There is nothing that He cannot handle. So, before you dive into your crazy and hectic week, I challenge you to take just a minute or two and give it to Jesus.

Lord, we can’t do this life on our own. We need you! I pray for any and everyone that is expecting a chaotic week ahead. I pray that you give them peace in the most sensitive times. The time when they need to feel your presence the most, I pray that you make it known! Cover them this week, Lord! Let them take a minute, or even a few seconds to just breathe and lay everything at your feet knowing that your are in control!

In Jesus Name…Amen!!

Rest Assure!

“But you must continue to believe this truth and stand firmly in it. Don’t drift away from the ASSURANCE you received when you heard the Good News…” Col. 1:23

Why do we question the promises of God? Ok, yes, I know the verse above is talking about the Good News, meaning Jesus Christ coming to Earth and dying on the cross for our sins. However, I do want to take in a different direction because I feel that it is applicable. So, back to my question. Questioning the promises of God, when He clearly ASSURES us throughout His word that He is always faithful. I hate that I do this. I can’t tell you how many times I have prayed for something and then I stress over it until God answers my prayer. And He answers it in His own way of course. I am sure we are all guilty of this at some point or another. When we pray, God hears every single word. Even those silent prayers that you pray in your heart, and don’t want anyone to hear. He knows those too! So, why do we worry/stress even though we know God is working on it? We are so fixated on our own selves and our own timetable that we don’t realize God hasn’t answered that particular prayer for a reason. He is actually waiting until the time is right! There is always a purpose for your unanswered prayer.

This past year, September 2017, I lost both of my grandmothers within three days of each other. Both of them were very sick. My Mamaw (dad’s mom), had been mentally sick for years. She had Dementia and it was heartbreaking to watch her deteriorate over the years. Her health declined as well, but for the most part she was ok. Just mentally lost. My Memaw’s breast cancer came back for the third time and it was already stage four when they found it again. Once my Memaw (mom’s mom) got sick again, I said that they were going to die very close to each other. I didn’t realize how close their deaths would be, but I just had a feeling it would happen that way. I remember praying for a while for God to take my Mamaw home with Him. It took some time to get to that point because I was so close to her. I was very close to both of them really! But my Mamaw had gotten to a point where she wasn’t living anymore. She wasn’t herself, and I couldn’t stand it. I knew the only way her body and mind would heal was if she went on to be with Jesus. When my Memaw got her cancer diagnosis, everything happened so fast. At that point, I was praying for her to be as comfortable as possible until God decided to take her home as well. Eventually, God did answer my prayers for both of them. It was extremely difficult, but God provided so much support through my friends and family, and I felt His strength more in that week and a half dealing with their deaths and funerals than I ever have before. Both of my parents were having to grieve for their own mother and also grieve for their mother-in-law. I am one very sensitive woman, let me tell you. I cry at the most ridiculous things. (I get it from my momma!) Ha! That week though, it’s almost like the tears were non-existent. Of course I cared, and I did shed some tears, please don’t think otherwise! Heck, I’ve been crying while typing this! However, I truly believe it was God covering me and strengthening me. Almost like He was saying, I need you to be strong for your parents. They are dealing with a lot whilst trying to be there for each other and their families. So I am gonna give you strength so that is one less thing for them to worry about.

Having my grandmothers go so close together was hard, but a blessing. Some may not see it that way, but I did. My family grew closer. I think my parents grew closer. And for whatever reason, God waited for them to go right there together. I had prayed for God to take my Mamaw a while before my Memaw had gotten sick, but it wasn’t time. He knew that it wouldn’t be easy when the time came, but He knew taking them together would be what was best for my family.

Resting in His Assurance…

There are times when I pray for things and I just leave it at His feet because I know without a doubt that He will answer at some point. I WISH I could be this way ALWAYS! I always pray for more opportunities to sing and/or lead worship. After I pray those prayers, I literally just wait and see what God brings to the table. You know why?? Because I KNOW that something is coming. I don’t know what, and I don’t know when, but I know that an opportunity is coming. I sing and lead worship to bring Him glory and nothing else! It has nothing to do with me. I just adore doing it for Him! As long as I continue to give Him glory through singing, I know He will continue to give me opportunities.

Whatever your prayer, God promises to answer. If you are a believer, I think that deep down you know that God will answer your prayer at some point or another. We just want to know WHEN, right?! Ha! It’s hard, I know. God wants the glory though. When He blesses you, give Him the praise! We don’t deserve any of His blessings, but He loves giving to us because He loves us, SO MUCH!!  When He does answer, it probably won’t be the way you expect. It probably won’t be in the time that you want, (boy, don’t I know it!) and it may not be the answer you are wanting. It will, however, be what He knows is best for you. Some of those answers will be hard to comprehend and hard to accept, I imagine, but know that God knows you better that you know yourself. He knows what you need and when you need it! He loves you!

REST ASSURE that God answers prayers! HE WILL ANSWER YOURS!


Go Anyway!

There are some Sunday mornings when it is really hard for me to go to church. Hear me out though before you get all judgey. 😉 I am currently in the middle of softball season. I’m an assistant coach for a high school team for those that don’t know. I have a tournament literally every single weekend between the months of February and mid-May, with the exception of maybe two or three. A whole lot of softball! And sometimes those tournaments will go into the late hours on Saturday night. We will get there at 7:30 or 8:00 A.M. and go ALL DAY LONG. I don’t do a lot compared to the girls, but I am still worn out at the end of the day. I can only imagine how they feel after having played four or five games! It blows my mind that I used to do this when I was younger! Ha! Anyway, after a couple of games on Friday night and then having games all day on Saturday, it is really hard for me to get up to come to church because I am so tired. However, have you noticed on those days when you don’t want to go, but you go anyway, God gives you the biggest blessing?? It ends up being completely worth it!!

This seems to happen to me every time I don’t want to do something, but do it anyway. Kinda like working out. On those days that I have no desire to go but decide to go anyway, I end up having the best work out and I feel so good afterwards. Or maybe I go to some social event that I really didn’t want to go to, I end up going and have the best time. Same with church! And a lot of times when I go and don’t feel like it, the message will be about what I am dealing with at the time, or it will be the exact thing that I need to hear. It’s great!! Maybe it’s just me, but in hindsight, I kind of feel like that is God saying, I see you! He says, “look, I know you’re worn out and so tired but thank you for coming to my house today, and I’m proud of you.” That’s what I like to think anyway! He knows your heart and He sees you when you’re trying.

There have been times though, when I actually have skipped church after a long weekend. Can I tell you that I do not like the feeling afterwards either. I’m not talking about vacation. I am talking about being at home and not going to church because you didn’t feel like it that morning. You would probably assume it is the guilt talking, but it’s not. I feel sort of empty. Almost like I skipped out on my best friend or something. And…in a way, I did. Jesus is my God, and ultimately, He is my best friend. My friends and I talk about this sometimes. We don’t like missing Sunday mornings and we hate to miss choir practice on Wednesday nights. Choir is our mid-week “pick-me-up”. We love going to choir practice, and when we miss it, it really does effect the rest of our week! And the same goes for Sunday mornings. Sundays are the beginning of the week and missing it is kind of like taking the wind out of your sails a little bit.

So, next time you feel like skipping out on church, I encourage you to go anyway! Just try it, and I think you will be surprised how God will speak to your heart!


Happy Monday!! 🙂

God Sees You!

This is going to sound really bad and not very Christian-like of me, but I am just being real with you. Ha! There are times when I see people I know in public and I will completely re-route the way to my destination in order to avoid a conversation. Gasp!! Really, Mae?! Yes, I know, but don’t you tell me for one minute that you haven’t done it before!! Ha! Sometimes it backfires and I run into them anyway which is probably what I deserve. But there are times that I have no desire to answer dreaded questions that I KNOW will come in that conversation. “Are you STILL single?” and/or “You STILL haven’t gotten married?” “What are you waiting for?” I swear, the emphasis they put on the word “still” is so pronounced, it’s crazy! I mean, the dagger hurt when you asked the question, but then the dagger twists and goes a little deeper when you emphasize the word “STILL”. That might be a little dramatic, but I’m just sayin. The last thing I want to do sometimes is defend my marital status. Yes, I am STILL single. No, I’m not seeing anyone. Just haven’t met that guy yet, etc. Anyway, I feel like that is all people see when they look at me sometimes. There goes that 32 year old single chick that has yet to get married. Is something wrong with her? She’s probably too picky. She needs to lower her standards a bit. (NOPE!)  You pickin up what I’m puttin down?! I think it’s so easy to get caught up in that description in how others see us. I think we all can relate somehow. Obviously, your situation is going to be different than mine, but I think you can understand where I am coming from. There is SO much more to who you are though!!!

What really matters is how God sees us. To Him, we aren’t defined by our marital status, or by the job that we have, or by our children, or even by our boneheaded past. Let me say that last part again because I feel like someone needs to hear that. YOUR LIFE IS NOT DEFINED BY YOUR PAST MISTAKES!!! To God, we are each, individually different and perfectly loved by Him! You are a child of the King. He created you to do great things! I think when we focus more on how others perceive us, there is a tendency to start believing it. If we focus on it too much, believe me when I say, that Satan will use that to his advantage. The more we give into those thoughts, the more it drains us. That is why it is so important to lean on Jesus! To focus more on what God sees instead of others. Continually talk to Him so you won’t give into those negative thoughts. God sees you as who you truly are…His!! YOU. ARE. HIS.

I do believe that some of us do hide behind these perceptions though. Sometimes it might be easier for others to think whatever they want instead of them actually knowing what is going on behind the scenes. When I am coaching, I love them all, but I tend to gravitate toward the ones that have the attitudes. Weird I know. Probably just got a few eye rolls, because you just thought of a teenager that truly gets under your skin. Ha! But there is ALWAYS more to the story than what you are actually seeing. I am not singling out any of my girls, but I believe they put up that front because they are starving for attention. They would NEVER admit it because they are too prideful, but I truly feel they just want to be loved on. So that’s what I do. I love on them, because they need it. They need to know the love of Jesus and I do my best to share it with them!

God sees YOU! He doesn’t care what others are saying about you. He cares about your walk with Him. He cares about the life that you are living. He knows what’s in your heart! He’s always behind the scenes and He is in front. He knows EXACTLY what is going on!! HE SEES YOU!!

“Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for the child she has born? BUT EVEN IF THAT WERE POSSIBLE, I WOULD NOT FORGET YOU! See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands.”

Isaiah 49:15-16

When Nothing Else…Jesus!

You ever go through those moments of just emotional gloom? I always describe those days as “blah” days or maybe even weeks, because that is usually the best way to describe it. You’re just kinda there, maybe a little disheartened and/or discouraged. Not happy, not sad, just going through the motions. Ever been there? I’m sure we all have at some point or another. We all want for people to think that we have it all together though, don’t we?! I think being real with people has become a lost art. We all want everyone to think that our lives are perfect, that we have it all together, not a worry in the world, when it is the furthest thing from the truth. I wish we wouldn’t put up those fronts sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that you need to spill your guts to the next person that asks you “how are you doing”! However, I don’t think that there is anything wrong with saying, “you know what, I’ve been better and would love it if you pray for me.” Or something of that nature. No need to go into details unless you want to. I know that is not the easiest thing to do because it makes you seem vulnerable, but this walk through life can be hard sometimes and we Christians have to stick together!! Pray for each other and be there for each other.

I WISH I was better at hiding my emotions sometimes. I have said it before that I do not hide things well. If I am upset, you can tell. When I am not myself, you can tell. I am a happy person, and you can tell when a happy person isn’t happy. I definitely wear my heart on my sleeve. Which I have to say, is a blessing and a curse. But I do know that when I hold everything in, it hurts me more that it helps me. This whole “blah” thing is where I have been for a little bit. And I really don’t have any explanation for it. My mom asked me this weekend if there was anything that she could pray for about a certain area in my life and I literally couldn’t come up with anything to say. I was trying to find the words, but nothing was coming out that made sense. After I got off the phone with her, I realized that even though I have absolutely no clue on how to form words on how I am feeling, God knows EXACTLY where I am. I am not “blah” to the God of the universe! Thank you Lord!! I find so much comfort in that and I pray that you do too. He knows exactly where you are!

Ya know, it’s funny…when I am writing these out and I start getting to the end I always feel like I am somewhat repetitive and end up saying the same thing. It’s probably true, but what, or maybe I should say WHO is the common denominator in ALL of my posts?? It’s Jesus. It’s my God. It’s Jehovah. When you are “blah”…Jesus. When you are broken…Jesus. When you are afraid…Jesus. When you are discouraged…Jesus. When you are losing hope…Jesus. When in doubt…Jesus. When you are failing and need a Savior…Jesus. When you don’t know what to do…Jesus. When you are lonely…Jesus. When it will take a miracle…Jesus. Jesus! Jesus! Jesus! He is the answer for EVERYTHING!! There is mighty power in His name!!

When nothing else…JESUS!!!

When you are having this moments of doom and gloom or maybe feeling a little depressed, go to the One who knows you better that you know yourself! Just say His name and I promise that you will start to feel better! Call out to Him! He knows!

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, and My ways are not your ways.”

Isaiah 55:8


It’s a Process

How do you feel about the word process? To some, that word makes people cringe and to some, maybe not. It’s possible that some people will automatically think of the word patience when they think of process. Why? Because usually it takes patience to go through a process to get to the result! I am not a fan of the word, however, I know that process is necessary a lot of situations. Which, oddly enough, is very much like patience. Not a fan of it, but it’s necessary in the Christian walk and in life.

About a year and a half ago I ran a half marathon. I know that I have mentioned it in my posts before, and I still question why I ever ran it in the first place. However, it is a big accomplishment! And a huge one for me, because I despise running for long periods of time. I played basketball. I’m better at the short and quick sprints! Anyway, I started training in August and the marathon was in November. I did the training program through Fleet Feet. Clearly, it was a process to get my rear end in shape to run a half marathon. We trained with a group every Tuesday night (I think, may have been Thursday??) and every Saturday morning. So. Much. Running. On Tuesday’s, we had our strength training day. In my mind, strength training is with weights. Not so much. In this case, we started at the store and ran to a semi steep hill and would have to run up that stinkin hill numerous times and back down, and then we would have to run back to the store! ugh! I’m exhausted just thinking about it!! Obviously, this was to build your stamina, and leg muscles. Oh and don’t worry, I went into this thinking that I may lose some weight…nope! Pretty sure I gained and I think my legs got bigger! Saturday’s would be our long run’s. My ultimate goal for this thing was just to finish! I wanted to be able to run the whole thing, but come about mile 11, my body said no to that! Ha! I was doing good to finish at that point. It was a process to even get to that point though! I think we started out running 5 miles and by the end, I was able to run 11 miles straight without walking and 13.1 miles all together! Whoa! It was a process!

Life is like that…a process. Some of those miles that I ran were absolutely brutal. I was wanting to lay down and give up, but I didn’t. I kept going. How many times does life knock us down and we want nothing more than to throw in the towel?! During my race, at mile marker 11, my body literally told me that I had to stop running. I could not physically run at that point. I kept walking, but I had to slow down because my body needed to. God could be saying the same thing to you, and that’s ok! He steps in and says, “slow down sweet child of mine.” One, you need to slow down, two, you are trying to do way too much at one time and you need to rest. It WILL get done, you will get there, but guess what…sometimes it’s a process to reach that certain point. This is something that you are going to have to be patient with. Frustrating, I know.

I have been doing some serious soul searching lately. I guess that is what you would call it, or maybe self-reflecting? Just been trying to change things that need to be changed in my own life. I want to be better. I need to be better. I want to be the woman that God called me to be. And not only that, I want and need to be that woman for my future husband. That is a prayer everyday for myself. “God, make me the woman that you called me to be and make me the woman that I need to be for him.” Trust me, it has been a process and not necessarily an easy one. God has opened my eyes to things that I had not seen in myself. Things that I didn’t want to see, but needed to be brought to my attention. I can’t say that I am cured of those things yet, but I am working towards them. It’s a process. Changing habits takes time right?

Trust God in the process! There is a reason God does the things that He does! Not an easy lesson to learn, but a good one!


Happy Monday!