Have you ever been fed a piece of “humble pie” and not even know that you needed it? Well, yours truly just experienced that very thing last Wednesday night. A few months ago a friend from work told me that Tim Tebow was coming to speak at an event in Albertville, AL. Not only that, but my friend was the coordinator of the event! Dude!!! Where do I sign up to help with this thing? This is my chance! Well as fate would have it, he puts me in charge of the “MEET AND GREET”!! What?! Things could not be lining up more perfectly!! And you can only imagine all the possible scenarios that went through my head from that point until the actual event! Pretty sure I had us married with kids in a matter of months! Which is something that every single Christian girl on the planet has dreamt or thought about at some point in their life. In my mind though, I was different and THIS time was going to different because it was ME! Ha! Bless my little heart! My life was about to change alright! It definitely did, just not the way that I thought or had hoped!
The week before the blessed “life changing” event was basically a blur. My two grandmothers passed away within three days of each other. One was kind of expected and the other one wasn’t…really. Memaw, my mom’s mom was diagnosed with cancer for the third time back in March. The cancer was stage 4 and there was really nothing that could be done. The next few months were just a downward spiral, a quick spiral at that. It was a tough few months to watch this completely independent woman become so completely dependent on her family. Heartbreaking. She went to be with Jesus on Saturday, September 9, 2017. Mamaw, my dad’s mom had had dementia for years. I went to see her for lunch every Tuesday for about 8 or 9 years and to watch that disease take my grandmother’s mind was truly painful. She went to be with Jesus on Monday, September 11, 2017. The rest of that week was an emotional rollercoaster to say the least! I was so thankful to know that my grandmothers were healed and I knew they were experiencing heaven at that very moment! Praise God!! A little jealous, not gonna lie! However, BOTH of my grandmothers passed away, basically back to back! I was extremely close to both of them and now they are gone. Long week for sure!
So we are FINALLY to the week of Tim Tebow!! Hallelujah, praise the Lord! After the week I had just had, I needed some good news in my life!!
The event was on Wednesday night and I got there early to see if there was anything that I could do to help or if I needed to set up anything, etc. It was about 4:30 and Tim was supposed to be getting there around 5. So excited and so nervous! We all know that these things never happen on time and you usually end up winging it. And that is exactly what we did. I am standing on the stage area, where the “meet and greet” was taking place, and there was a knock on the back door. It was locked and I had been opening it for people ever since I got there. I run over to the door, not thinking anything about it. I open the door and there he was! Tim Tebow, was in front of me!!! Sound the Hallelujah chorus!! Not really sure what my face did at that point. I was probably sporting a goofy smile and I’m sure my cheeks turned 20 shades of red. He walked through the door and came straight to me with his hand out and said “hey, I’m Tim.” Of course, I responded with “hey, I’m Magan”, goofy smile still in tact! I got my picture taken with him which will be printed and framed!! And that my friends, was as close to a relationship with Tim Tebow as I will ever get! From that point on, it was just crazy. I basically sat in the background while all the VIP’s came through and got their picture made with him. Which wasn’t a bad thing! It was cool to see him interact with people and just relate to literally everyone that he came into contact with! After the “meet and greet”, he went to see the “Night to Shine” kids. That was a beautiful thing. It brought me to tears! Those kids are his heart. They adore him and he absolutely adores them. He spoke to EVERY special needs person in that room. It was precious.
A little bit later, it was time for him to speak! I was pretty pumped about hearing him speak. I have always heard great things and I was about to hear him firsthand! However, this is where God rips me a new one! Tim tells a few stories, but one in particular hit me hard in a way that I wasn’t expecting. He tells the story about his senior year of college and losing the SEC Championship to Alabama. After that game, he had to attend the College Football Awards in Orlando, FL. The night before the award show, they had a formal dinner. He said he did not want to be there. They were talking all about Texas and Alabama playing for the National Championship that year and he had no desire to listen. Who could blame him? But he was so focused on himself. He had a “woe is me” kind of attitude. He was allowing that game, that loss, to define him at this particular moment. A waitress came up to him at one point and tells him that a special needs girl and her family drove from Virginia to see him. She asked if he could come out and speak to her. He said “of course!” Tim ends up asking her to be his date to the awards show the next night. They get her a beautiful dress the next day and get her all dolled up for the show. LOVE! She got to walk the red carpet and sit in the front row with him. She was the star that night. It was all about her!! Tim was up for six awards that night. The first five were announced and he didn’t win any of them. At that point, he was back to his selfish attitude. He was frustrated. I can imagine that he felt somewhat embarrassed as well. I mean, you are up for that many awards and haven’t won one yet. I know I would be! It comes time for the sixth award and before they announce anything his mom taps him on the shoulder and says something like, “Timmy, either way, you’ve already won tonight. You brought her. You just don’t get your reward till you get to heaven.” That is not verbatim, but it was something along those lines. But WOW!!!! Alright Momma Tebow, I see you!
Yall, leading up to this week, I prayed more about my meeting with Tim Tebow than I did about the lost lives that he was going to be speaking to that night. I would send up a prayer for the people that were coming and for lives to be changed, but 80 percent of my prayers consisted of what I would say to him and how we would meet. God kicked me off my high horse so fast I didn’t know what hit me. He said, “sorry Mae, but it’s not all about you baby doll!” I was embarrassed and so ashamed and am still somewhat ashamed today. Tears were falling as I was walking back to my car. As soon as I got in, I begged for forgiveness! How dare I make a night that was supposed to be all about God, all about myself!!
The beautiful thing about Tim Tebow is that he is completely anointed by God! God is using him in a mighty way in the lives of young people today. He is at the center of God’s Will right now and God is not going to let anything or anyone for that matter, mess that up. Tim is not perfect and I am not suggesting that he is, but he is definitely a man after God’s own heart. It is a beautiful thing to see.
So last night was a game changer in my life, in more ways than one! Not only did I get to meet my forever long crush, but best of all, my spiritual life got rocked!! And I mean that in the best way possible! I haven’t been this vulnerable in my relationship with Jesus in a very long time. Humbling to say the least! Pride is such an ugly thing and it is not easy for me to reveal this side of me so publically. However, it is NOT all about Magan, as much as I would like it to be! I do not have it all together. I am very much a work in progress. I know that I need Jesus to survive this life on Earth!
God, thank you for Your mercy and Your grace! Thank you for Your conviction! Thank you for breaking my heart for the things that break Yours! Thank you for being the most powerful when I am at my weakest! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for kicking me off of my high horse!! Lord, rid me of my prideful ways! Thank you for making me vulnerable! God, more than anything, thank you for your son, Jesus. Thank you for the cross and for forgiveness! Thank you Lord for saving my soul!!
The hardest, and yet, the best humble pie I have ever had!