Y’all I could not wait to share my post this week! I was doing my quiet time this past week and I am reading in Genesis. I had a rough couple of weeks and was just struggling with some things and I wanted to read about Abraham and Sarah. More so Sarah. I was just searching for some encouraging words because I needed it.
So my least favorite word is patience! I don’t know many that actually like it but it is probably my least favorite word because I’m just no good at it. This is why I wanted to read about Sarah. Patience wasn’t exactly her strong suit and she makes me feel a little better! Ha! I don’t know about you, but when I go into my quiet time, I go into it expecting God to answer my question in a certain way or for Him to give me some profound wisdom about what I am going through! Now that does and has happened before, but sometimes He comes back with something that totally rocks me that I didn’t see coming. That’s what happened this time.
The passage I read was Genesis 18:20-33. And I’m going to put it on here for your convenience because you need to read it to get the rest of my post.
“Then then the Lord said, ‘The outcry against Sodom and Gomorrah is immense, and their sin is extremely serious. I will go down to see if what they have done justifies the cry that has come up to Me. If not, I will find them out.’ The men turned there and went toward Sodom while Abraham remained standing before the Lord. Abraham stepped forward and said, ‘Will You really sweep away the righteous with the wicked? What if there are 50 righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away instead of sparing the place for the sake of the 50 righteous people who are in it? You could not possibly do such a thing: to kill the righteous with the wicked, treating the righteous and the wicked alike. You could not possibly do that! Won’t the judge of all the earth do what is just?’ The Lord said, ‘If I find 50 righteous people in the city of Sodom, I will spare the whole place for their sake.’ Then Abraham answered, ‘Since I have ventured to speak to the Lord – even though I am dust and ashes – suppose the 50 righteous lack 5. Will you destroy the whole city for lack of five?’ He replied, ‘I will not destroy it if I find 45 there.’ Then he spoke to him again, ‘Suppose 40 are found there?’ He answered, ‘I will not do it on account of 40.’ Then he said, ‘Let the Lord not be angry, and I will speak further. Suppose 30 are found there?’ He answered, ‘I will not do it if I find 30 there.’ The he said, ‘Since I have ventured to speak to the Lord, suppose 20 are found there?’ He replied, ‘I will not destroy it on account of 20.’ Then he said, ‘Let the Lord not be angry, and I will speak one more time. Suppose 10 are found there?’ He answered, ‘I will not destroy it on account of 10.’ When the Lord had finished speaking with Abraham, He departed, and Abraham returned to his place.”
Now just to clarify, this was right after the Lord reconfirmed His covenant with Abraham about them bearing a child. Sarah heard the Lord speaking and laughed in disbelief/sarcasm when He told Abraham they would have a child in the next year. That would so be me! Yeah, ok God, whatever you say. Sarah was in her 90’s and God is telling her that she is going to be having a child. I’d laugh too! Although, they were living to be like 900 years old back then, so she’s still in her prime right?! Lol! Can you imagine?! That is a LONG time to live! Anyway, God called Sarah out when she laughed. She said, “I didn’t laugh” and He said, “oh, but ya did!” (MWV…Magan Weeks Version) Ha! Good try Sarah. After reading about Sarah, I continued on which is how I got to the passage I just shared. God spoke to my heart through this, which was not expected. It hit me hard, but in such a good way!! How patient is God right here with Abraham in these verses?! I mean, ole Abe starts at 50 people and ends up at 10!! Seriously, some of you reading this were probably like, ok dude, God gets it already. I was! But every single time, God responded just as calmly as the first time. Even Abraham felt like he was annoying Him, because twice, he asked God not to be angry with him. Never did God get angry or annoyed, He calmly answered every time Abe asked.
This is exactly like a parent to child conversation huh or maybe with a very inquisitive person that just continues to ask questions. And the same question over and over. After the first two or three questions, no big deal, but continue on and it gets a little old and you just want them to stop, right?! A couple of weeks ago I had this gentleman come in to talk to my boss. It was about 8:20 and my boss had stepped out to get coffee before his 8:30 meeting. I told this gentleman exactly that and he said he would just come back later. He comes back at 8:32 and asks if he’s back. Dude, really?? I can only imagine the look on my face. I had to push aside the smart elic comment that was on the very tip of my tongue! So I just explained again that he had a meeting at 8:30 and he should come back later. I offered to take his name so my boss could call him when he got back, but he said no. He asked about how long the meeting would be and I had no clue. He said, “well meetings usually only last for about an hour, so I will come back around then.” Okie dokie. Came back in an hour. “No sir, still not back.” (Annoyance has definitely set in.) I finally took down his name after he refused the first few times and I told him that I would let my boss know as soon as he came in. My boss finally got back and I gave him the message as soon as he walked through the door, literally! He says ok, goes into his office, and started making some phone calls. Dude comes in MAYBE five minutes after my boss had been back in the office. He sees my boss at his desk and HAS…THE…NERVE to look back at me as if I never told him to call him! SERIOUSLY?! Ugh!!! It was almost laughable!!! It really is now, but in the words of the ESPN show…C’MON MAN!!
When I read this about Abraham and God speaking to each other, it reminded me of this day at my office. I was just thinking how I reacted to the situation and how God reacted with Abraham in their conversation. God was PATIENT with Abraham the whole time. He knew that Abe was going to count down all the way to 10 from 50. And you know what, he could have counted down from 50 to one by ones and the outcome would not have been any different. I got frustrated with this man after about two or three times. Ha! Lord help me! I may have some things to work on.
What I took away from this more than anything is that God’s patience is endless. He doesn’t care what you ask or how many times that you ask! He just wants you to talk with Him. He wants to hear from you! He loves that you are spending time with Him! I will sometimes stop praying about something because I don’t feel like it’s working or what’s the point anymore. Almost like it’s falling on deaf ears, because my prayers aren’t being answered. That is NOT what He wants us to do! Be consistent with your prayers. He hears them, even the ones you say silently in your heart. As much as I would love to know why certain things haven’t happened in my life yet, it doesn’t mean that I need to stop praying for them. However, it does get hard. I mean, it’s no secret, yours truly is single and I want to be married with a family one day. It is a dream of mine and I long for the day. I hear it more often than not that I am too picky, maybe I should lower my standards. You’re kidding me right?! Seriously people, do you know what kind of crazies are out there these days?! (Oh if you only knew some of the stories I could share!) If I need to have my guard up, trust me, it’s now of all times! Ha! It’s not easy. Yes, I struggle, but do you know who has been my one constant through every bit of it…God has. I am tearing up just thinking about it. My heart gets broke, He’s there. I make a stupid decision (too many times), He’s there. People get frustrated with me, but guess who doesn’t…God. He is beyond patient with me, even when I talk to Him about the same thing and ask Him the same question ALL of the time. And I mean daily!! He just calmly listens as any good Father does. And He is the best Father. He is SO GOOD. There are so many extravagant and beautiful words to describe my God, but that is my favorite. It’s so simple, but says so much! That’s who He is. He is our Father and He is oh SO GOOD! Which is why “Good Good Father” is one of my favorite worship songs.
Lord, thank you for ALWAYS being patient with me! I get mad at You, I have yelled at You, I have strayed from You, but I always find You in the exact same place because You NEVER LEAVE ME!! Thank you Lord. Thank you that You forgive me as soon as I ask. Thank you that you hear even the most silent of prayers in my heart. Thank you for knowing my heart and holding it so gently in the palm of Your hand. And God…thank you for being a GOOD GOOD FATHER.